My first night in since Tuesday and I’m exhausted.  It’s been the best week though.  Last night I got in at 3am having danced my bottom off.  I watched it wander out of the room with a strange man but it seems to have returned unharmed as it was there when I woke up this morning.

It’s weird but although I’m tired and hung over, I feel really good.  A few weeks ago I would never have been able to make it through the week that has just passed.  I usually have to rest in the day while Miss M is at nursery as I have little sleep at night, or it is very disturbed.  One night out would bring on a migraine unless I pretty much slept for the the next day.  And a week like this would mean no other achievements.  No gifts posted, including those to competition winners from last year (bad Jo).   Hootin’ Anni’s ‘Pay it Forward’ gifts are as on their way to Corey, Leendaluu and Momo at last.  Cards are almost all written and posted.  Shopping is complete, and we managed to do this…

Miss E’s room used to be white with pink hearts on the wall, a million posters, and a large mural at one end.  I decorated it when we moved her in there when she was 4 years old and I was pregnant with Miss M.

This time we have a dark pink wall, a medium pink wall, a light pink wall and a lilac wall, as per Miss E’s instructions.  And it actually works ok, even though Mr B and I were kind of worried it might look like the inside of a left ventricle.

I normally paint them pictures on their walls, like Miss M’s butterflies, but E wanted prints of mermaids so we found these gorgeous cards and framed them up.  They’re so pretty and it means if she gets bored or wants a change we can change the whole theme just by changing the pics. 

So although I’ve missed you all and have lots of reading to do this week, I feel pretty good, because maybe, just maybe my new meds are making a difference.  I have energy like I’ve not had in a long time.  There are ‘real’ reasons behind this tiredness, ie a busy week, late nights and over consumption of alcohol.  

I feel like someone plugged me in and recharged my batteries, filled my veins full of red bull and took my eyes out and gave them a cool, cleansing wash.  The world is looking a little fresher and a little newer and I’m hoping it stays that way.

And I promise no schmaltz tomorrow ok?  

But if there is, I’ll provide buckets.