Jo Beaufoix | Archive

Treading Water

9. March 2009

Today a little glimmer of light flashed at the end of the tunnel. Thanks to the support from so many very, very special people who I respect and care about so much both in the real world and blog land, (Thank you everybody, you’re amazing), I’m feeling a whole lot better today. Last night was [...]

Not Waving

8. March 2009

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My kids are pretty special. I’m learning that more and more as we go through this time. I’m so scared of doing the wrong thing, or of not doing the right thing. When you struggle with depression it’s sometimes so hard to trust in your decisions, or to have other people trust [...]

She’s a little Glowing Friend

7. March 2009

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Nic is my shining light tonight as she is getting me out for a chat and a chill and a few bevvies.
She doesn’t actually shine in the ‘glittery, blinding, useful in a powercut’ kind of way, as only superheros and vampires can do that, but she shines in the sparkly beautiful friend sort [...]

Shining Light

6. March 2009

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Annie Lennox has recently covered a song by a band I used to love called Ash. It’s a kind of uplifting song and I thought I’d give it you tonight because I can’t write. I want to, but I can’t.
As well as the worries over Miss M there are other things happening that I [...]

1974 needs some rainbows

5. March 2009

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I’m having a fit of the blahs.
The chocolate didn’t really help, but the wine and houmous are going a little way towards bringing on a smile. I should probably also stop watching the dreary TV show which is set in 1974, which apparently was a time of rain, dark clouds and lots of people who [...]

Wascally Wabbit

4. March 2009

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What with Miss M’s possible health concerns I have become more watchful than usual of my smallest girl. The few niggles I already have, which before this I put down to her being 4, have become firm nudges, an avid finger of doubt in my ribs that has me questioning every little thing. Like the [...]

Better News and Good Reads

3. March 2009

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Thanks for all your good thoughts everybody. Please keep them coming. It can’t hurt right?
I’ve managed to get a cancellation so Miss M will see the consultant next week. I’m so relieved as a month would have sent me completely mad. MIss M herself seems fine which is a good sign. She is at this [...]

Please let it be nothing

2. March 2009

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Sometimes when life is throwing crappy stuff at you, something happens that overshadows everything. Nothing else matters. It all just pales into insignificance. Because it might be nothing, but it might be something, and if it’s ’something,’ it might be something bad.
There is a possible ’something’ in our lives right now. Miss M has a [...]