I’m taking a little time away from my blog.  It used to be a place of escape, somewhere safe, but right now, for whatever reason it has become something else.  I don’t want to be part of the competition anymore I suppose.  It was kind of all I had that was just for me and now I just feel like I’m losing it, like I’ve been sucked dry and there isn’t much of me left.

I know part of this is my PMDD and depression, but I suppose it’s started to mean too much to my psyche and I can’t stand the thought of watching myself fall down and fail.  Call me a coward if you want, but it’s hard to imagine you might lose one of the only things anyone has ever made you feel you were good at.  It’s 5.00 in the morning again and my head won’t turn off and I can’t do this anymore.  I’m going to wait for the joy to come back a little.  Hopefully it won’t take too long.

UPDATE
Thanks so much everyone. I promise this is a health thing. I don’t feel bullied or driven out, just kind of exhausted and needing to look after myself a bit more physically so I can be the best for my kids and for myself. I know I’ll be back as I love blogging and all the friends I have made so much. It might just be a week, it might be more but I will be back.

Ju don’t worry lovely. I know it’s hard because we’re so far away but I am ok. You know what it’s like and you know me. Love you loads and please don’t worry.

And there is a site here I may be spending some time on.  Isn’t it weird that sometimes things seem to happen when you need them??

Breaking the Silence

“This is a blog from Lyn Jenkins and Linda Jones.  Lyn is a regional co-ordinator with Mind and Linda is a journalist.  Both are involved with a mental health project in the Midlands and this will be their blog to chart progress, discuss issues and highlight articles and resources they hope may be of interest. “